SECRET REVEALED !!!

okkay.

after around 9month u've been hiding this from me!

masa kantoi, i asked u. n u said 'no'. then we i force u. atlast u admit it. but when i ask u 'how big? how it looks like?' u won't answer it. ngelat dari that question, tukar topic. mcm² alasan, mcm² yg awk akn wat kalo saya kuarkan topic nie..

n tonite.. i donno mcmana i can go tru the internet, n i donno wut i did. n u know wut???

I've FOUND THE PROVE N THE ANSWER TO ALL MY ANSWER dat i've been asking u for few months d!!

suddenly my tears fall down. drop by drop. my hand shaking. seriously, i feel damn EMPTY !

oh GOD, what exactly u wanna tell me?? 

u just left me alone for 2 days. smalam kita baru je baek². but since last nite, u just left me. ok. i understand that u were tired. but atleast u can tell me aite? but, its k larh.. n today?? after the morning training session, u straight away went to the snooker till u gonna start ur evening session. ata the evening session, u went again there. to the snooker session. padahal before u start ur evening session, u promise me something. if u can't fulfill the promise, don't just simply say what u wanna say. think before u talk. it might be hurt someone feeling. n tonite?? the big lies that u've made have revealed!

DAMN IT !!!

i wish i wouldn't know bout this! i really breaks my heart. n the wound to my heart?? it bleed again!

it gonna be damn hard for me to accept this.

almost 6 months i didn't ask u bout this matter. but, today.. i found it. i found the prove. n it has it's own name!! n even mine, we don't have the name for it.

i feel really empty tonite. y all this suddenly happen to me? y it come back? nape sume nie wat aku imbas balik ape yg da jadi??? aku nak lupakan benda² nie larh!! i almost forget it d!! i already forget half of it! i didn't bring up this thing anymore! but y now?? y??? 

i am totally empty aite now!! it just gonna be tears who accompany me tonite.

what r u trying to do to me dear ???

this is who i am..

"I'm SELFISH, IMPATIENT and a little INSECURE. i MAKE MISTAKES, i am OUT OF CONTROL and at times HARD TO HANDLE. But if you CAN'T handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell DON'T DESERVE me at my best."

♥-diyanazuhaili-♥