SECRET REVEALED !!!

okkay.

after around 9month u've been hiding this from me!

masa kantoi, i asked u. n u said 'no'. then we i force u. atlast u admit it. but when i ask u 'how big? how it looks like?' u won't answer it. ngelat dari that question, tukar topic. mcm² alasan, mcm² yg awk akn wat kalo saya kuarkan topic nie..

n tonite.. i donno mcmana i can go tru the internet, n i donno wut i did. n u know wut???

I've FOUND THE PROVE N THE ANSWER TO ALL MY ANSWER dat i've been asking u for few months d!!

suddenly my tears fall down. drop by drop. my hand shaking. seriously, i feel damn EMPTY !

oh GOD, what exactly u wanna tell me?? 

u just left me alone for 2 days. smalam kita baru je baek². but since last nite, u just left me. ok. i understand that u were tired. but atleast u can tell me aite? but, its k larh.. n today?? after the morning training session, u straight away went to the snooker till u gonna start ur evening session. ata the evening session, u went again there. to the snooker session. padahal before u start ur evening session, u promise me something. if u can't fulfill the promise, don't just simply say what u wanna say. think before u talk. it might be hurt someone feeling. n tonite?? the big lies that u've made have revealed!

DAMN IT !!!

i wish i wouldn't know bout this! i really breaks my heart. n the wound to my heart?? it bleed again!

it gonna be damn hard for me to accept this.

almost 6 months i didn't ask u bout this matter. but, today.. i found it. i found the prove. n it has it's own name!! n even mine, we don't have the name for it.

i feel really empty tonite. y all this suddenly happen to me? y it come back? nape sume nie wat aku imbas balik ape yg da jadi??? aku nak lupakan benda² nie larh!! i almost forget it d!! i already forget half of it! i didn't bring up this thing anymore! but y now?? y??? 

i am totally empty aite now!! it just gonna be tears who accompany me tonite.

what r u trying to do to me dear ???

this is who i am..

"I'm SELFISH, IMPATIENT and a little INSECURE. i MAKE MISTAKES, i am OUT OF CONTROL and at times HARD TO HANDLE. But if you CAN'T handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell DON'T DESERVE me at my best."

♥-diyanazuhaili-♥

worst week !! :(

based on the picture above..
it's true that we don't have to look back on our past. it just gonna hurt us.
we have to move forward. move on with our life. just go with the flow..


its really a tough week for both of us..
arguing with each other almost every single day !
damn crazy!!!
it's really hurt both of us!


it happen because he's tired with his training schedule n i'm tired thinking bout my exam n my injuries !!


n bila dua² penat, what's goin to happen???
mesti larh dua² PANAS BARAN/HOT TEMPER !!!


masa tue start larh yg nie xpuas hati, yg tue x btol, yg nie salah, mcm² larh yg x btol !!!
sampai mintak² break!! arrgghhh! worst thing ever !


tp, nak wat mcmana kan.. masa marah, bkn bleyh pikir btol² pown. masing² tetap ngan kepala keras tue!
bler one of us yg sedar, n mintak maaf, baru larh everything gonna be fine..


thankz to SUE (cousin's ameen) n RIENA (my friend) sbb bg nasihat to both of us. 

okkay.. nana nak wat pengakuan kat sini..

that..

between both of us, im the one yg HOT TEMPER person ! nana sangat cepat mengamok berbanding dia..

he usually takes things cool dulu..
tp, im the one larh jugak yg owey mintak maaf dulu.. huhuhu.. :)


today da berakhirnye pergaduhan kami yg nana anggap BESAR jugak larh dr yg lepas² tue..


hope after this kurang larh pergaduhan nie.. nak mintak x bergadoh trus tue, mmg comform akn bergadohnye. tp, xnak r yg trok². penat kowt bgado! kalo x bergadoh trus, agi best !!! rasa aman n tenang je idup nie !!


i'm praying that everything gonna work out as wut we plan before..


i'm seriously missing u.. it's been 2month d didn't meet u. really hope that i can meet u A.S.A.P !! n i know that it's gonna happen only in next month. tue pown kalo sempat. coz bie training every single day. morning n evening. pity u. exhausted! have a good rest there my dear.. btw, i know u're missing me too just the way i'm missing u. 




this one for u. sincerely from my heart..
ayg xtaw bler bie akn baca this post. but, i hope as soon as u will..
bie, ayg nak mintak maaf atas ape je yg jd all this week. kita bdua sama² baran kan?
masing² ego. ayg mintak maaf sbb sakitkan hati bie ngan pbuatan ayg.. ayg mintak maaf kalo bie trasa ngan ayg.
bie, ayg maafkan setiap ape yg bie da wat kat ayg slama kita bersama.. ayg xsangka kita da nak masuk setahun da. actually da setahun kita kenal.. cuma x cukop setahun kita declare je agi.. :)
bie, ingat taw.. i love u so much ! walau ape pown keputusan kita, kita je yg tau isi hati masing² kan?
n plzz.. xnak guna kekerasan n ugut² da k syg? luf u oweys! n i miss u s0 much!!!

p/s : Even though you may be miles away, you’ll always be close to my heart.♥♥♥

♥-diyanazuhaili-♥

♥.11 month.♥

♥ HAPPY 11^th MONTH-SARY ♥

newly edit !

the truth is..
we really miss each other!!
AND
we hate the distance between us!

bie...

ayg doakan kita bahagia berdua. tanpa ada sape² yg ganggu or wat citer pape tentang kita da pasnie. Kita nie famous sgt kowt! hahahaha... Sbb tue org sume sentiasa nak updated cter pasal kita je kan syg? Pastue x abes² ngan pangai dengki, hati busuk diaorg tue ! eeee.. trok gler pangai mcmtue!

grr~

SANGAT BENCI org yg mcmtue!! Kami xpernah ganggu idup korang. So, jgn nak thegeh² ganggu idup kami ! kalo yg kami pernah ganggu tue, sbb korang yg ganggu kami dulu. X abes² nak menganggu igup kami nie!! X serik² ke yunk ooi??? Xpenat ke kena maki hamun ngan kami bdua nie? Kami nie da naek bosan da! Hahaha.. I won’t mention anyone. 

Sape yg mkn cili, dia yg terasa pedas-nye ye.. ;)

BIE,

I REALLY DO LOVE YOU AITE !!

Walau banyak mana pown kita da gado, kita TETAP BERSAMA kan?

Tue yang paling penting skali..

syg ingat taw...

kesetiaan, kejujuran, kepercayaan n kesabaran sgt penting dlm sesuatu hubungan. especially hubungan cam kita nie. skrang nie kita da ada dlm 'LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP'. what ever it is, we have to deal with it k.

Bg kwn² yg sentiasa doakan kebahagiaan kami, sentiasa bg nasihat, semangat, n sentiasa support kami, kami nak ucapkan terima kasih byk² yg x terhingga! Smoga korang nye relationship pown dlm keadaan yg baek² sentiasa !! kalo korang doakan yg tbaek, tbaek larh yg jd kat korang jugak. :)

Ayg sentiasa doakan kejayaan bie disana, di tempat baru bie.. ayg doakan b sehat sentiasa. xmo saket² k? jaga diri leklok kat sana.. jaga makan minum tue. jaga kesihatan !!! tu yg paling penting!

NO notty² aite !!!

♥-diyanazuhaili-♥

missing them. :(

tiba² je rasa sedih, sayu sgt perasaan nie.. hmm..

i know wut i miss !!!

I MISS THEM !!!

Jo Wen, Tiffany, Jiliian, Jaime, Haniza, Ivan, Nana, Nandy, Venny, Uriel, Goma

this is my BIG group. (Goma, Nandy, Jillian, Jo Wen, Ivan, Theban, Jaime, Uriel.)

it's been already 4month away from them. :(

i know they'll be by my side when i need them or even i don't need them.. they'll always there for me. i can count on them! and they always put a smile on my face even when i'm crying. they'll give me lot n lot of advise to make me better. they'll make me feel relief for what have happen to me, my life.

GOD !!! I DO MISS THEM !!!

i wish i can go n meet them now !!

i remember that we use to have our lunch together on the weekdays. 

we have to combined 2 big round tables because we sit in a large group!

tue pown x cukop!

hahaha..

sampai kena marah ngan kakak² kat dewan mkn tue.

grr~

i also remember that all of us nak g mkn pizza. 'Yellow Cab Pizza' at Ampang, KL.

that time we have total of 9person.

can u IMAGINE how we fit in the car??

Vios a.k.a. Jillian's car. hahaha.. 

7person on the backseat!!

that such a crazy work that we have done on that time! hahahahaha...

we arrived safely there.. :)

i will not erased all the memories the entire of my life !

u'll see my real smile in all the pictures. not even one of it was a fake smile.

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now this is my SMALL group. (Zulhijjah, Haniza, Diyana)

INTRODUCING U.....

THE 3 SESENGAL !!!!

MISS to be wif u girls AGAIN !!

owh.. kami sangat gila² bila bersama! =P

haniza here with me in USM. but not ieja ! dia kat UPM.

eventho haniza n me dekat, kami sangattttttt jarang berjumpa!!

dia kat penghujung USM n me? kat tengah² USM nie..

plus, course kami pown lain².

Haniza ambek Communication n me ambek Management.

ieja plak ambek Account kat UPM.

kami berdua SANGAT STRUGGLE kat sini !!! grr~

kami bertiga ada banyakkkkk kenangan together².

da larh bilik pown sama². mmg tunggang terbalik bilik tue..

bilik tue larh bilik yg paling lambat tutop lampu, paling bising aras tue.. huhuhu.. =)

kami bertiga sgt nakal !

kalo nak g class, kena tungu sampai cukop 3org, baru gerak !

kalo sorang lambat, tiga² lambat !

byk kali kena marah ngan MISS NILASH kalo class dia yg paling awal. 

nana larh yg salu nak kena. sbb nana xde training pagi.

spatutnya nana kena sampai awal larh class.

tp, sbb tunggu agi 2 makcik² nie abes training, nana pown g class lambat. 

teacher akn ckp 'ARE U THEIR BABYSITTER?'.

n i'll just keep quiet n smile. hehehe.. =)  

da biasa kena camtue.. so, wat bodo je. 

xkena denda pown.. hee~ 

:-D

kalo dinner, ktaorg akn mkn bertiga kat foodcourt.

everyday plak tue! kalo mlm, xpernah mkn kat dwn mkn !

sbb muak !!! huhuhu.. :(

mcm² kenangan kat dlm bilik tue..

dr gelak ketawa sampai larh menangis !

dr menari sampai ke study !

hahaha... =D

kalo haniza nak belajar EKONOMI, nana larh cikgu nyer! hahaha.. mmg lingk0p!

blajar kat BALKONI. cam cter BEDTIME STORY !

kalo blajar MATH plak, i will KACO haniza !!!

fair kan??

kalo haniza n ieja blajar ACCOUNT, nana plak blajar BISNES.

so, subject tue je xbleyh maen kaco² !!

sumenye KENANGAN MANIS !!!

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kat bawah nie sume picture² yg byk kenangannye~

ENJOY !!!

Last Day in SSBJ !

Ieja, Kechik, Nana

Jaime, Nandy, Nana

Nana, Ieja

Kechik, Ieja

Ieja, Nana, Miss Nilash, Kechik

Nana, Kechik

Nana, Ieja, Kechik

Kechik, Ieja, Nana

Goma, Kechik, Ieja, Jo Wen, Nana

Sas 3A

Kechik, Nana, Nandy, Jillian

Friends

Jaime, Nandy, Nana

Jillian, Nana

Goma, Ijad, Kechik, Ieja, Jaime, Nana, Uriel, Ivan

Roomies!

SSBJ Pre-U Students

Roomies~

Classmates !

1st Sem (SAS 1A)

Kechik, Ieja, Nana

so many memories between us. even just for 2years..

LOVE ALL OF YOU !!! ♥

♥-diyanazuhaili-♥